Dear Baby,
I am coming towards the end of the story of how we came to make the decision to adopt. After that, I will fast forward to the present.
That winter of 2009, we went to the Czech Republic for our last try of IVF. I came back (to make a long story short) to lack of support and understanding. The results were negative. We went to Chicago for XMAS and I was very depressed. I am tired of hearing people tell me "next year you will have a baby"
I have always wanted to adopt. To be honest, I didn't know I was going to meet your father. He is the perfect person for me. I didn't know he existed and had already decided I would eventually adopt because that is what I wanted to do. You will get to know me and see it in my nature.
I am naturally a nurturer. You father figured it out on his own. He saw the calling. He was very excited when we made the decision. It is so meant to be.
We started to research and educate ourselves and reach out to people until we found the right approach with the right agency. We are now patiently waiting. You are not born yet at the time of this writing. We are just waiting for the stars to align, for you to be born, and for us to unite as a family.
Meanwhile, we are working on our health, our careers, our home and our finances. I have a lot to learn yet. Every day I learn something new about myself. I wish for wisdom when the time comes to raise you. Life has so many lessons. I am learning them by the day and by the minute.
This year my focus will be on health. The healthier I become, the more years we will spend together. Your father is doing the same. That is all I have today. The next writing will be more positive and descriptive of our current experiences.
Love you. XOXOXO
